there are words. and there are words. and there are the oiled limbs of inflection that snake through the imagination of a tumbling scape.
A madman taps on the door of my mind and brings to me the universe wrapped up in a knot of alternating currents arguing like fishsellers for the prize of the soul. that smells more than Bombay freshest saltiest.
I wait for myself in the next room. and conversation trawls through the thick air, cutting through the ocean of an imagination set aflame by the transaction of a dream. all they ask for is balloons in the garden of today. I want more. I want the sky served in a banana leaf. I want to eat it whole. with my bare hands. slurp it like paisam. I want the city to tingle in my body and ring like a bell screaming from the topmost spire.
I want to hear the news yelled out on street corners. to hear my loneliness whipped into the shadow of a tired arc, drawn by the day on a Vasailocalman’s brow. I want to see god dance the swan lake before me. and the revelation slip out of an urchin’s smirk.
the madman understands.
He knows that the cats sit together and discuss their revolution. he knows that they spit when they see a black T shirt cross the road before them. that is why he writes.
that if I find a coin
in my pocket and
throw it in the air,
the day will shrivel into
a flower, with bated breath
and a sudden intake of testicles
waiting for it to fall
that the old woman laughing on the street
is secretly watching the tide turn
she’s watching me win a wager
with my past.
I believe the fervency in his voice
when he urges me about the Pundit
who is a rhetorical question that
the pilgrims forgot to ask.
I believe him when he tells me
that the boat is a queen
and hands are commas
searching for a thought to complete them
he knows the
flesh of the beast
as well as the beef vendor’s
shrug, or his quiet smirk
He knows that my nails will continue
to grow even after I die
and most of all
(no wait, he knew “is he gone!”)
that the word is a messenger
that the letter is unreadable.
and the paper is crumbling.
that is why he wrote
and that is why I read